Tuesday, June 06, 2006

the kittens have gone :(

This is difficult to write, but not as difficult as the decision that we had to make. after 6 days we ended up taking the kittens back to the breeder since I (Dino) could not cope with them. I have suffered from anxiety in the past and thought that was all behind me, but obviously not. I kept getting a panicky feeling of "someone's ruining my stuff" as the energetic kittens bounded around - totally not their fault, they were just being kittens. Maybe it was due to getting them so soon after just getting the house, or the fact that I was at home all week and had too much time to be introspective, I don't really understand it myself. I was worried about not letting them outside, about what we would do with them when going on holiday, about not being able to clear their litter tray when we are at work, about what will happen to them if and when the floor gets replaced and the roof fixed (still pending!)..... there are more things but it just makes me sound insane. Lets just say that I am a worrier. Joe said that I loved the idea of getting kittens but could not deal with the reality.

So after 9 months of waiting for them, now they are gone. Luckily for them, there is always a waiting list for ragdoll cats, and within 48 hours they had both found new homes. We took them back of Friday, which was very emotional for both of us. All day Saturday I had to the urge to phone the breeder back and say we wanted them back. By Sunday they had gone to their new owners (one of them is another radio presenter, but not on JOY). Joe has been massively supportive during all this, I know he has been feeling upset but has been trying to keep me going.

Now in retrospect I regret such a kneejerk reaction and wish that I had done more to work through my anxieties. I can only learn from my mistake. At the moment I feel like I would like to try again in the future and hopefully will be more prepared.

Of course, like an idiot I had bored the whole world with my excitement of getting the kittens since last September, now I will have to face people asking me how they are doing. Hopefully some will read this blog first. It reminds me of the time when I told everyone I knew that I was taking my driving test - and then failed. The next time I kept it a secret until I had passed. There is also a lesson in "The boy who called wolf" - many know me to be a practical joker, and so will probably think I am joking when I say that we don't have the kittens any more. I never thought that I could get so attached to 2 kittens in less than a week. Goodbye Reuben and Chester xxx

[Dino]

6 Comments:

At 4:00 pm, June 07, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said...

omg - my thoughts are with you both... take care. Xxx MP

 
At 4:21 pm, June 07, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Don't beat yourself up too much Dino, sometimes the harder decision is still the right decision.

It is true that we all shared in your excitement at the arrival of the Kittens, in that same spirit we also share your sadness.

However, you were never going to truely know your emotions and feelings until the Kittens arrived, and upon their arrival if a negative vibe was prevalent, then you have taken the hard, but responsible step before the Kittens became attached.

Indeed, we share your sadness, however I invite you to share in our respect and support as well.

Ben from Monegeetta

 
At 5:57 pm, June 07, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I had the same problem with kittens myself. They ran around the house like lunatics, it was quite unnerving. In the end I had to give them away as well. You have to follow your instincts and if you are not comfortable with the kittens you have done the right thing.

 
At 9:42 pm, June 07, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I really feel for you Dino, You did the right thing and as time passes you may want to revisit the issue of having pets again. Don’t torture yourself for making the difficult but sensible choice.

I somehow think the issues and anxieties you guys have had with the house have translated in bringing pets into the home.

As Ben says we respect and support the decision you have made.

Keep Well

John from Port Melbourne

 
At 4:23 pm, June 10, 2006, Blogger craggles said...

Back to puggers hey...sorry to hear 'bout yr anxiety..stiff upper lip ol son ..just wasn't meant to be ..dont beat up on yrself..move on..extra cuddles for each other
Craggles :)

 
At 10:05 am, June 22, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Dino & Jo, Sorry to hear about Reuben and Chester.

I grew up without pets and I can understand how difficult it can be when you introduce them into your home and life. When we got ours I was so close to giving them away because it is a massive change and I did not realise how much of a change it would be. But you made the right decision the older they get the harder it is to re-house them.

Thinking of you your crunchy nut ;)

 

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